I'm on a diet... Let me sabotage it!

Hey Everyone,

I am sure if you have been watching my videos on Youtube, you saw that having my mother-in-law in town isn't going so well. She wants to know about mine and Matt's finances, and make sure we are spending our money wisely, and all that. We are grown adults here, I think we know how to handle our own money. Sure, we aren't rich, but we don't need help either. We are just fine. It's frustrating, she doesn't need to know our finances, and she gets mad at me, because I let Matt be in charge of the money. She thinks he has enough to do. Honestly, I can't take that job away from him. Matt loves dealing with money, he should work at a bank. I understand our finances, but Matt pays the bills and balances the check book. When he gets deployed, I will take over that job, but until then, I let Matt do that, he enjoys it.

Then we have her opinion on the Navy. She hates the fact that Matt joined the Navy, and not the Air force. Now, Matt and I went to every recruiter of every branch (i.e. Marines, Army, National Guard, Cost guard, Air force and Navy) The Navy recruiters were the only ones who were honest with us, and gave Matt what he wanted out of being in the military. So anyway, of course she gives her opinions on the matter, and how hard it will be for her (not me) when he is deployed. She sees him once a year, and I live with him. She doesn't take my feelings into consideration at all.

I told her I was on a diet, and the first place she wants to go to is McDonald's. She offered to buy me something, and I turned her down politely, and she asked again. I again told her "no thank you". Maybe she felt guilty that she was the only one getting food, but I told her before hand that I was on a diet, and I don't eat fast food anymore. This is why none of my friends or family (with an exception of a few) know about my Youtube channel.

Family and friends want to do everything in their power to stop you from succeeding it seems. "I'm on a diet"

"Oh, let's go to Burger King!"

"I'm on a diet"

"... Oh. Hey, you want some brownies?!"

"..."

Or the ever so classic "You don't need to loose weight!" I know they are being nice, but it's frustrating. So instead, I have decided this time around, I am not telling my friends and family about my weight loss idea. (again with the exception of a few) This way, when they see me next, it will be a surprise, and I wont have to be offered any sweets. Cause of course, when you aren't on a diet, they make comments about everything you eat, then when you are on a diet, they want you to eat everything they would be commenting on if you weren't on a diet.

I never felt the support from my friends and family (again with the exception of a few) then i have with everyone who I have been sharing my journey with on Youtube. The comments you all share and encouragement, makes me really want to succeed. Not for just me, but for you guys as well. I know we all need to succeed for us to all meet our goals. I know I get my motivation from everyone on Youtube. Seeing you guys succeed makes me say "Hey! They did such a great job this week! I will too!"

It's strange, I feel so connected with everyone here in the Youtube Weight Loss Community, and you are all complete strangers. I can show you my full body, and know you guys wont care. Yet, I can't do that with my family. I can't even tell them I am watching my weight in fear they will try and sabotage me. So, I want to give everyone a HUGE thank you for that. Each and everyone of you who watches my videos, and actually cares if I fail or succeed, has a special place in my life. So, I told myself, when I reach goal weight, everyone who has shown support, and encouraged me to keep going throughout my journey, will get a special gift. It may not be huge, but I want to show my appreciation some how.

So, again, thank you everyone! Keep up your great work, and don't let people effect your moods. I shouldn't let my mother-in-law get to me. (At least I haven't shown her that she has gotten to me) Only i can control my mood, and outlook on everything, and I will try to stay more positive throughout the week!

Thanks again, love you all!!