Alright, so today is Monday! Last night I ran to Wal-mart and I got a journal, and I am keeping track of all my calories and making sure I am getting enough in, and not starving my body. I am also writing down my exercise I did that day, how many calories I burned and even my times.
Today I went to the gym! I thought about not going, and I told myself, get going, or I will never succeed. So I got in my car, and went. (Really once I am in the car, I am fine) I ran on the elliptical for 30 min. A total of 2.5 miles, 600 calories burned, and my first mile I ran in 10 min and 16 seconds!! That is my fastest mile ever!! I was so proud of myself. After I was done running I moved to one of the bikes, and I biked for 30 min, of a total of 6.3 miles, and 200 calories burned. I had a lot of resistance on. Once i was completed with my cardio, I went and stretched, and did a few weight exercises. So it was an amazing day at the gym.
I have been following my diet plan, but I think I am going to have 2 meals a day. I figure with exercise, I will be getting hungry, and I want to stay healthy. I am very pleased with myself today, and tomorrow will be just as great. And next week, I will loose 5 pounds at least!
I had a long talk with my husband yesterday. He really opened up to me, and I am seeing just how hard he is struggling. He is in training, and it is very intense. IN 6 months he earns the equivalent of 108 college credit hours. He is stressed out, tired, becoming depressed and frustrated. He told me he wanted guy time, and I agreed. I told him if he wants guys over, I will leave. Either go to the gym, or to a friends house, or just walk around the mall. If he wants to leave and do something with the boys, that's fine too. I wont get upset. I understand. But he said something that hurt.
He told me he would love to go kayaking with me, but feels I would slow him down, and he has to be in the mood to screw around, not actually wanting to get somewhere. I understand what he is talking about. But it was like, I am too fat to keep up with him. I am not fun to hang out with because of my weight. I felt horrible about myself. I was up all night thinking about those words. He didn't mean to hurt my feelings, and I am not mad at him, he has a point, but it hurt. I was disgusted with myself. I want to do more with my husband. And my weight is stopping me from doing a lot of what he wants to do.
I am determined to loose this weight. Once I hit 170 I will be so much more active and will be able to keep up, and once I hit my total goal of 125 - 130, he will be slowing me down! I don't want to be that "Fat wife" anymore! I want to be that "hot wife". I want to make my husband proud, as well as my own benefits of being skinny and fitting into clothes, not dread going into fitting rooms. being healthy. I want to be at my goal by my one year anniversary. March 11, 2010. Then by May when it is time for my yearly Dr. visit, I will blow my Dr. away at my loss! When I see my family, I will shock them, and blow their minds. I will do this, I will lose this weight. Never see it again!!
Woo hoo! Self motivation! Thanks for reading, talk to you all later!
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